Couldn’t say it better myself, except to say we are all so very proud of you ningers!Awesome stuff mate.
What I wanted to convey is that we all have similar thoughts and anxities. Even when we're aware of how ridiculous they are, it's a survival instinct we simply cannot shake. The fact you've taken this opportunity and shown up on your first day makes you better than a lot of others who avoided it simply to save face.
Keep at it mate and see how it all pans out.